I've been thinking about what or why it is that drives people to not be truthful...and i believe it boils down to one thing ultimately...fear.

If you think about it, every white lie, every deceit or omission of information and every flat out lie seems to occur because the teller is afraid of something....afraid of how someone will react, afraid of being discovered, afraid of being judged, afraid of consequences or fear of the unknown...to mention just a few.

Now you can say that some may lie because it's a compulsive or learned behavior, but if you look deeper i'll bet you'll find an underlying fear in there as well.

You may deduce that some lie as a form of manipulation or to gain advantage in a situation...but again, underlying is most likely a fear of failure or fear of losing control.

Children are born without fear of any kind. Fear is a conditioned emotion that people learn over time...I still remember the very first time my daughter experienced fear.  She was a baby and came into a loving safe gentle family life, and she always was smiling, happy secure...until one day she was laying on the floor of our living room watching her sister play around her...her sister accidentally bounced a ball on the floor and it landed directly on the baby's face.  I remember it like it was yesterday, because right as it happened my instinct was to jump up and prepare to console her, but there was a delayed reaction where she went through a moment of shock then confusion, followed by fear in her face and then intense crying. From that day forward she became afraid and then i noticed that in any situation where things became a little chaotic around her(which before the incident she would have found amusing), she became uncomfortable.  It was sad to see this happen but it is an inevitable part of life.

So back to being untruthful. How can we overcome the fear of being 100% truthful all the time? Developing a healthy sense of apathy may be one way...by that i mean being secure enough with ones self to not care about what others think or how they react to brutal honesty.  Is that healthy? Perhaps it's just a matter of being strong and courageous enough to be completely honest and be able to accept whatever comes of it? 

We are all liars in some capacity...no-one is exempt from this human law except babies possibly, but by the time they can speak and lie, most have done so at least once..out of fear.

It someone ever tells you they NEVER lie...then they are a liar.

So in the interest of Social Science study, I came upon this documentary that is very insightful about people and how society has become conditioned and controlled through the science of fear..among other things.  It's 2hrs long but worth a watch it you find some time and want to think about this idea a little deeper.

http://truththeory.com/2013/01/24/human-resources-remastered/

I would like to challenge everyone to take one complete day to be completely honest about everything to everyone in your life.  One day of openly saying what's really on your mind...one day of not holding back information, one day to be brutally honest on all fronts.  Do it as an experiment to see what unfolds...do it to be surprised..or to make the change happen. Be brave and do it to clear your conscience and to free your heart..for one day.  Do it to grow your soul.

Hope everyone is having a lovely and truthful weekend! :)      

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Less than a week till Christmas...another year ending in the blink of an eye...tragedy in the news and more economic strife around the corner.

So many things to think about and weigh the heart down, and i can't help but feel this time we're in will be one that is written in history and on our hearts as the greatest depression...and i say this as a global thing, not just an american economic situation.

My eye's have been opened to many truths this year...enjoy the freedoms you have, empower yourselves with the information that freely flows on the internet and most importantly...embrace change.  Knowledge is power.

Ok enough about that.

finished a painting the other day...a gift for my dear friend who recently got re-married to her first husband.  Here it is:

Hope everyone is having a beautiful holiday season!

Well yesterday turned out to be one of the suckiest days i've had in a looong time...so i guess it's keeping with the tradition of the previous 2..maybe more years, on that day.  So much uncertainty, unhappiness, emptiness and unpleasentness...

The tiny little rays of light that did peek in at me throughout the day were quickly over-shadowed by a world filled with those who do not appreciate beyond their own wants and who freely manipulated and use for their own benefits.  I am appalled at people...i hate myself for giving so much of myself to those who have taken and taken and made me feel like a doormat. 

I have always felt i had an endless supply of love to give...but now, i feel I am empty.

It's a dark place.  

painting all day today...

Beautifully Used

Knowing all she lost she'll never reclaim,

Her heart drifts from arm to arm in vain.

No one spoke words she needed to hear,

Till her belief turned into complacent fear.

Mostly numb now tinged with occasional sting,

Another drink drowns out any feeling within.

Crying laughter from a mouth who'd long forgotten,

How a kiss should taste sweetened for rotten.

Sinking farther from where she always desired,

Convincing herself that there are no more liars.

Imagination and pretend are her closest friends now,

Calling them out during the darkest of hours.

Sleeping with an enemy killing her fiction,

The dream comes to haunt with truth’s apparition.

Knowing how she has been beautifully used,

Her soul remains helplessly lost and confused.

~ArtistMommy~

There's this couple who moved in to an apt in the building next to me recently... they're on their balcony quite often and so am I,

so I see them a lot out there just sitting together in chairs talking and drinking beers and smoking cigarettes.

There's nothing terribly special about them but they're always out there always together and always just sitting and talking and smiling.

I'm not sure why, but I'm always looking for them when I go out there now. Part of me really envys what they have...so simple, so calm and yet somehow so fullfilling.

That seems to be the hardest thing to find I think, someone that you can do absolutely nothing with all the time, and still be completely content & happy.

That may be the key... because when all the other stuff goes away that's all you're left with.  i think thats all i ever wanted.

Another day staring me down...what will it hold?

The weather is nice, I'm up early, my children are off to school, place fairly clean...all seems to be well in the world...

Kids were off to a rough start this morning...i swear i can't figure out why they have become so resistant to the simplest of tasks, basic hygiene. Somebody please tell me when my beautiful little girls are going to WANT to take showers and brush their teeth and hair?  This is becoming the bain of my existence...trying to make them aware and conscious of their appearance. Regardless of how many times i remind them to brush their teeth or bath when they are at their dad's house or simply put on CLEAN clothes, there is always at least one thing that get undone and discovered 30 seconds before the drop-off at school. 

"What's it gona take?" I ask her in my obviously unhappy voice as we pull up to the school...silence from the back seat. They anxiously scoot to the edge of their seats waiting for the car to come to a complete stop so they can bolt out of there and away from me as fast as humanly possible. Helpless to the fact that at the end of this school day and for the next 3 they will be with Disneyland dad...living a life of fast food, no rules, and a blatant disregard for hygiene. It's both dishardening and frustrating to be the responsible caretaker...and feel like i can't be the fun mom because i have to pick-up all the slack from the other side.

We've been dealing with our first episode of lice that was discovered on the first day of school.  I've treated and retreated repeatedly now, and anyone who has been through this process will understand what a fucking pain in the ass it is...not just the heads but the entire house. It's also quite expensive. I'm at my wits end feeling that there is no end as long as the other side continues to slack...

So frustrated.